On the ride home from JFK coming back from my trip to SF my father told me that his good friend’s eldest daughter’s husband is finally ready to part with his wheel and kiln. 

My dad says a lot of stuff. Last summer when he said that he knew someone looking to get rid of a wheel and kiln I knew better than to get too excited. But somehow the stars aligned and it has finally happened. Of course, like anything that comes with the help of someone else, there is a condition. I have to promise to finish school. I suppose my parents can’t fathom the idea of having two daughters abandon school (Zoe dropped out of Hunter in March to go to culinary school. She starts this July and I haven’t seen her happier in the past three years.)

So I made a vow to finish. (I kind of tricked him…The thing is, as far as I am concerned, I have been done with all that —> for some time now) 

 Letting go of my expectations, or the expectations others have, has been a challenge for me but I am just about there. I learned to accept who I am and see myself in a more valuable and positive light. I am so much more than this.

I have new goals. I recruited my soon to graduate architect good friend to help me design my studio. He needs to start a portfolio and what better way than to collaborate with someone that cares? There is a local artist in my neighborhood that meets with 8 other artists every Monday to create. He appeared at the bagel place my sister works at and it looks like I am going to drop by this coming Monday. He is looking for a model and I am looking for a change. Who knows? I may even make some new friends.

P.S. I went to my first yoga class yesterday night. I saw the most beautiful shades of blue green during our final relaxation.