So I sit here thinking what I should  make my first post about.  OBVIOUSLY, it should be something spectacular, right?  Well, I am clearly at a loss otherwise I wouldn’t be writing  it at 2:30 am.  Yet, now I think that it says something to my character.  I am someone who sort of hangs onto that last minute.  I wait until there is that last chance push to make my move.
I think it goes back to my indecisive nature.  It’s not that I don’t know what I want– it’s that I’m always unsure if what I want is the right thing.  I have trouble deciding between Fridays and Applebees let alone something huge.  My college experience sort of reflects this issue with decision.  I transferred to QC after my first semester as I wasn’t sure the major I planned on was right [I had only been going to the previous school for the major program].  Lo and behold, I wound up keeping the same major.

Similarly, I never took full advantage of the “college experience”.  I fit the typical commuter profile– take the train/bus, go to class, go home.  I never joined clubs or made permanent friends.  I have attended meetings here or there but I couldn’t commit to the idea of going every week.  Now that I’m in my last semester, it’s sort of too late to start.  I wish I had done something to stand out.  I would have loved to study abroad.  I would have loved to join a student organization and feel like a “part” of the campus. But I didn’t.
However, there is this blog.  The great thing about this blog is I can do it from the comfort of my own home. The anonymity aspect is appealing to a person like me.  And, if I’m truly indecisive, I can hit the delete button and the entry is gone.

 

So here’s to indecision.