Being a third year student at Queens College made me feel really good about myself – I have been able to maintain a relatively good GPA for the last few years; in contrast, my social life is pretty much in the gutter as it has always been. I recently accepted Golden Key club invitation, and I made a new friend there just by asking what she was studying for during the meet-and-greet meeting. I still stick around in the Ceramics club to see if I can help them out. I have been studying for seven consecutive semesters already, and I am slowly getting sick of it.

I sometimes question myself “Why did I decide to become an art education major instead of a fine arts major (as the majority of my friends are)?” or “Why did I decide to tackle on two minors instead of doing dual majors?” The curious answers to “Why am I even here to begin with?” is slowly seeping into my mind. I know my goal is to get my bachelors degree, but it seems too tedious at this point.  A sense of hopelessness is washing over me, and I do not know how to stop it. I used to totally immerse myself in studying to keep my mind off these problems, but I feel graduation is too close to ignore these issues.

I feel like the only skills I have are those of an academic student. Granted, I have been slacking off this semester, because I am obsessively in love with my boyfriend… but I feel that my potential is so limited from strictly working on schoolwork. My parents do not wish that I get a job, in fear that it will distract me from my studies. My schedule is so wonky, that it prevents me from attaining an internship, let alone volunteer. Long story short, I starting to believe I am just getting too comfortable being who I am. I need to reach out, and I want to give myself a goal. I want to do a study-abroad program before I leave school.

Or, perhaps, all I need is a break – I do not know how long it needs to be in order to revitalize myself.

I digress from this incoherent whining to welcome back anyone from Queens College who’s reading this from your four day weekend. I hope it was as entertaining as mine was! Not to be the sore thumb, but I just wanted to say that the next extensive break we have is Thanksgiving in November. Boo-hoo.

Edit: I am horribly amused by this guy (who is sitting right next to me), because he is trying to find the power button on the iMac for the last ten minutes. I should help him…