This semester has turned into a real bust. I’m extremely mortified and utterly embarrassed and humiliated by what I did. I’ve been having issues with my family which I guess is not surprising. Trying to do all I had to do with school and maintain family relationships and not act out got to me and sadly, I acted in anger and got a bit out of control. Now, I will be living on my own which hopefully will turn out to be a good thing. I’m looking for a job, my first job where the money is going to really matter and be put to paying bills as opposed to new Nike’s and I have taken this semester off to get my life sorted out a bit. At least that was the intention. In the end, I probably should have stayed in school to have something else to keep my mind on. Instead, I’m ruminating about my fate and not doing much about it. The goal right now is back to school in January and until then gets a good job which I can do part time during the semester.

There is only one small tiny problem-I still have mental issues. My focusing sucks and I’m not happy. Not just unhappy, but really down in the dumps. I have to figure something out. Maybe one day at a time is the way to go here. I know I’m in the minority (I think) but I like school and I can’t wait until January for winter session. Until then, I will be the off campus blogger, away from Queens College physically but don’t worry guys-Lee Harbor’s heart will always be at Queens, no matter how far away he goes (even when I’m in fancy shmancy New Rochelle<My dad’s friend’s house>-I have to take photographs of these houses, they are incredible!!).

Anyways, everything is from above and for the best and I think this can be a growing up experience (yes, even at 24 I have a hell of a lot of growing up and maturing to do.. but better now then fifty!!) and a turnaround of sorts. Still only one year left until graduate school and the family I’m staying with is really really nice with awesome little kids. Plus, the mom has a PhD in psych and the dad almost got his master’s in psych before deciding to become a lawyer so I have in house psychologists which is both a blessing and a curse. ‘Take responsibility’ ‘you chose your own life’ ‘you can do anything you decide to’…..I get it. SHUT UP!!!!!

In January there will be a lot more to post about. I’ll be back to finally doing something productive with my time and it should be much more interesting and exciting to read about. Until then…