All right, this blog is going to be morbid. However, it’s something that I’ve been thinking about lately and I’m curious what other people feel. I know that until I started having problems I would never have written this I’d have found it completely inconceivable to question this. However, now, in the present, I’m living every day with a colossal amount of suffering. Not enough that it would be worth it to end it all. But why can’t there be a law allowing people to end it all if they wanted. This is America, and if someone feels life is not worth living why not let them?

I’m also totally baffled by the Penn State situation. I don’t understand the psychology behind why a man would want to molest little kids? Where the hell does that desire come from? I know sexuality is weird, and confusing, but are there people walking around all over New York City who have these desires and are just controlling them? Is this a relatively normal desire to do such abhorrent behavior? How scary would that be if one percent of the population would, if given the choice, want to molest kids? YOUCH!!! 

Lastly, I need some support. I feel terribly alone, stuck in my own head, with my problems, and would love if some people could write some comments of support. Thanks guys! Wish me luck on my EMT course and holding out until January when I get back to college and can focus on schoolwork and get back into a normal schedule! Love you all,-Lee