Our ambitions make us who we are. When you feel yourself losing focus, what happens?

I feel like I’m losing my identity. I used to be so passionate about art, but now? I feel like a big fake. I thought it was just a mental block that caused me to surrender myself to failure, but as I continue to reflect, it only reconfirms my beliefs that I will never be who I wanted to be if I no longer have the drive anymore.

I thought about talking to my parents about it, but that would only just drive me insane. They think I can not make it, and I don’t need any “I told you so” remarks. It’s bad enough I am doubting myself.

Perhaps it’s the fact that I want to conform that makes me lose my perspective. When I see works of others, I feel the compelled to forge it. I’m not sure if it’s because I like it that much or I want to see if my skills match theirs.

I don’t know. I don’t know. I don’t know.