Just after I wrote how happy and thrilled I am to be going to Greece this summer, I made the decision to call my travel agent and tell her to let go of the seat she was holding for my flight in July. You, (ha!) the imaginary person reading this blog may be thinking, but gee whiz, why?!
Suzanne, a professor and researcher at Sinai, and one of the awesome people I get to spend time with on Fridays, offered to mentor me with a focus on fMRI, if I was willing to give a greater time commitment and be very serious. I am still unsure of the details (this news was delivered via a messenger) but I am hoping that after tomorrow’s lab meeting we can discuss it. I didn’t ask for the opportunity, which perhaps is not a good thing, but I think that it is very much a compliment that she is willing to even think about using some of her valuable time to help me grow intellectually. I LOVE THESE PEOPLE.
Slowly, I am starting to feel a little bit more like myself. Motivation appears to be creeping back into the picture, and now is the time to really get back in the game. I have let myself go! This coming Saturday’s poster presentation is a prime example of exactly what I am going to STOP DOING. I hate being unprepared for things that are critical to my experience as a student. So now that I am talking all this talk, I am going to finally start doing something about it.
AACAP is just around the corner. I am going to make sure that I won’t be in the same pathetic and stupid situation that I will be in this weekend.
edit:
So Huzeifa (presenting with me on Sat) and I met with Dr. Bodnar. He reassured us that Saturday shouldn’t be anything to worry about. It was actually quite comforting. I feel a lot better, and a bit silly now. It is okay to not have an answer to a question, and anyone that has a follow-up question when I reply with “I do not know” is an asshole. HA! Words of an experienced PhD.
I also read:
To be unprepared is to have faith and to do it confidently is to know we are all connected.
